Anxiety PTSD Insomnia

Through out life our confidence that we have can be destroyed. This can happen to any one even the strongest people can struggle with confidence sometimes. I've always had confidence, but there have many times it has been destroyed which is why I work so hard to keep my confidence. First time my confidence was shot( I grew up in an abusive home from both parents ) so if was easy to just do what I needed to , to survive so that is what I did. But when I was told " it was my fault , or my feelings didn't matter because it wasn't always about me" I was very young when this was said multiple times to me amongst other things. Then my confidence came again and was shot again many times when I was. Teenager but also came back. Then I go after what I want because I always do. Well this last year has been difficult and my confidence was shot when I lost my job and had to find work again, first time ever for me losing a job . so I did what I had to do. I got a job , I took ...

I never thought I would settle. There is different kinds of settling. You can settle in * relationships * marriage * friendships * jobs * careers etc. I'm talking about settling with careers. You see based on how I grew up and with , I know how messed up. But I also vowed I would never settle. I always go after my dreams and opportunities that way I never live with regrets. But here I am settling in my career or job and not the one I want. Why ? Some of the typical reasons people settle* they don't think they can do better. * they are scared , afraid of failure , being alone * they think its what they deserve . * they think if they put up with it then no else will have to. ( in the case of relationships) sometimes kids are involved, it can make it harder. Well settling in. Career or job is for some of the same reasons and I didn't realize that I was settling . sometimes its easier to settle , because you know what to expect and you know what will happen. It a means to surv...