Anxiety PTSD Insomnia

Reinventing yourself : Their are many different ways to reinvent yourself and cope with life One of them is dealing with feelings vs being numb. Numb is not wanting to feel things or deal with the chaos going on the triggers so you block it out you numb yourself so you don't have to feel. ( resting b face lol ) etc. It take on so many expressions depending on who you are and what's going on. Feelings can change depends on what's going on . feeling are annoying to cope with yes you can know what your feeling but not how to deal with it healthy or unhealthy a lot of times its easier not to deal with it but it makes it difficult for everyone around you . so to avoid both I reinvent myself by hobbies , decor organization basically what I can control so I don't feel out of sorts!

Right now anxiety is flooding my veins, most is good , some is bad , the rest is just infuriating. The good is amazing just annoyed I have to be patient which is not my strong suit. The bad is kicking my butt and making me exhausted and tired. The infuriating is making me feel guilty and horrible about myself. Anxiety is up and down and when its constant it sucks. When you have a difficult time turning it off your head spins all the time. You feel like you're drowning and there is no release good or bad you just have to wait it out deal with it everyday and just seem ok. Its an everyday struggle . its an everyday struggle so yes I get everything done I need to . I push myself and it just doesn't seem good enough . when it doesn't get done or everything piles up and I'm to blame. Its infuriating frustrating yet I do this to myself everyday anxiety is a vicious cycle.