When choices are made and we are put in situations that are uncomfortable , or in sticky situation through our own choices or choices of other.... We end up thinking or dissecting every choice or decision that got us there their so it doesn't happen again. Yet some how we end up there again, and again and again. Its a never ending cycle. The results may be different just a little every time but we still end up there. So we dissect and we try to not end up there yet it comes up and we can never truly heal even if we do truly heal we are left with the scars the memories the hurt and they never go away. We could be bettering our lives , and some thing said or incident in our lives will bring it all back up again. And we are left to deal with it. Or if we do talk about it , its we should be over it , ppl don't wanna hear it , ppl change give them a chance, don't talk about cuz others get uncomfortable, somehow it end up our fault , if we don't make these choices or t...
been divorced since Halloween 2019 officially! grateful and it's good because : I can focus on myself and kids and not deal with my ex as much . he is a good dad so I want him in their lives , I just wish I didnt have to be the bigger person. I'm being vague cuz I dont really wanna discuss. I am struggling but I am working on getting through it. I have a decent support system with friends , family and co workers. I'm still at my same job but trying to get benefits. working on my goals. I'm a lot happier! confidence is a pain but working on getting that back. working on my business. enjoying the holidays with my kids and making fin memories and new traditions. hopefully 2020 will be a great year. positive vibes. <3 happy holiday and a new year
due to everything going on right it's been a roller coaster and crazy. basically been faced with losing my job or on the verge . ( I still have it by the way ! ) after almost a 12 year relationship, 9 or 10 of that being married .... I'm now going through a divorce cuz my kids dad doesn't want to be with me any more. its joint custody with the kids. basically I've lost my confidence and now I have to find it again. I've never had to struggle with my confidence I've always been a strong confident person. then I became a mom of 2 kids ( whom I love to death ) but becoming a mom I've struggled with my confidence ... then when I think I've found it boom I'm hit with this so now struggling with it. ( cuz whose gonna want all this ? not that I'm looking for a relationship cuz I am not. but you do wonder sometimes. ) FOR the 1st time in a lot of years I can focus on myself , my dreams my Hope's and goals! that makes me happy cuz some where along ...
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